I don’t know how long we’ve formally been isolated, but our last real social interaction was when my mom was here to stay with us, and she left for Chicago on March 6th ish, so it’s been over a month. In spite of everything going on, we’ve been extremely lucky in so many ways – we were out of the hospital before things got really rocky, Brian’s been working full time from home and saving his FMLA time, and both of our parents were able to meet Ruby before the official lockdown. This is such a crazy time, and every week feels more surreal than the last. We’re just trying to be grateful for the time we have to enjoy Ruby and just take every day as it comes.
It’s been so heartbreaking to hear how the virus is affecting people around the world, but for some reason, I haven’t been stressed or anxious about it affecting us until this week. Both Brian and I have reasons to be worried about our jobs, but it was only this week that it dawned on me that if I lose my job, we all lose our healthcare, including Ruby. Obviously yes, I’m aware that this is what millions of people in the country are dealing with right now, but it felt like a gut punch when I realized that it could easily be us as well. It was pretty much a downward spiral from there, and I’ve been in a funk all week just running through all of the worst case scenarios. Everyone is affected so differently by the situation, and nobody’s struggles should be minimized. We’re privileged to have the worries that we do, but that doesn’t mean they’re not as important as anyone else’s. I’m worried about our jobs, about money, about seeing our families, about finding childcare for Ruby, and just the general uncertainty about what the next year (or more) looks like in the world. It’s a whole weird, new, and terrifying world to live in, and it’s 10 bajillion times scarier now that we have Ruby in our lives. I would do absolutely anything to protect her, but this feels like something I don’t know how to fight.
Despite all of that, our life feels somewhat normal as long as we’re at home. It’s been confirmed that we’re definitely introverts, and perfectly content spending every waking moment together. And lucky us, we have an adorably cuddly and happy baby to stare at all day!
The weather was so so so beautiful this week, and we spent almost every day outside on the roof hanging out on our new patio furniture. We feel so lucky to have our rooftop, since our apartment in Capitol Hill didn’t have any outdoor space, and we can’t imagine being stuck at home without somewhere to get fresh air. We were both a little nervous to spend money on a patio set when we don’t know if we’ll be able to renew our lease and stay here another year, but we decided it was worth it now that we’ll be spending a lootttttt more time at home. I love it 🙂 Next up, a grill! The cherry blossoms bloomed this week, and our neighborhood is snowing blooms. We are so lucky to live somewhere so beautiful in a time like this.
This week Ruby had her 2-month checkup and got her first set of vaccinations 😦 It was exactly as traumatic as I expected it to be, and we practically ran out of the office as soon as it was over! To add insult to injury, they slapped two bandaids on her soft little thighs that we had to rip off. Luckily, she was smiling at us 10 minutes later, so she obviously forgave us.
We’re very definitely biased, but she’s the cutest, smiliest, happiest baby ever, and I fall in love with her more and more every day. I was organizing our photos, and realized that I’ve taken over 4000 photos since she was born…. 8 weeks ago. I’m a little bit obsessed. I live for her smiles, and I can’t let one go without taking a photo! I think I’m going to lose my mind the first time she giggles!
- Loves loves loves bathtime!
- Is super smiley, especially right when she wakes up
- Sleeps SO WELL! Only wakes up 1 or 2 times a night, and sleeps a 6 hour stretch!
- Has officially grown out of her newborn diapers 😦 Our chunky little 9lb 5oz baby has leveled up to a size 1 diaper
- Is the best baby in the entire world, duh!