A few rough patches in my past have taught me that having crazy expectations or setting timelines for my life is totally unrealistic and will lead to disappointment. Now, instead of rushing through life to meet my own imaginary deadlines, I take each day as it comes and live deliberately.
No matter how hard I try to be positive, there will always be times when I feel like nothing is going right, and I have to remember that I’m luckier than a lot of women to be where I am today. I graduated college, have a full time job in my field, I am financially stable, I am healthy, and most importantly, I’m happy. I know that I’m happy because I know what it is to be unhappy, and I’m grateful every minute that I have moved on from that point in my life. I work hard to be conscious of all of these wonderful accomplishments, because there will come a day when I will wish I hadn’t taken them for granted.
There are plenty of things I look forward to and want for myself, like a family, a creative job, and more time to enjoy life. At times, I feel frustrated that I haven’t accomplished all of those yet, but I know that timing is the most important factor in all of that. I remember in highschool, hoping that by 25, I’d be married with a baby. HA!!! I’m 25 now, thrilled to be crazy in love, and just not ready for a family, and that’s ok.
The timing isn’t right, but someday it will be, and all of those things will have been worth waiting for.
This isn’t nearly the post I thought it was going to be when I sat down to write it, but hey. In the spirit of not holding myself to expectations, I’ll let it be.